Joanna's

2012-01-30T08:12:00.003+08:00

Soooooo yesterday, I met up with Amanda, Ray, Lionel Daddo and Ashleeeeeey! :) initially I didn't know Daddo was going... Amanda and Ash only mentioned "honeybunny" in twitter and I was like what? Who's that??

Now I know....... Hahahahaha.

Met Amanda and Ray earlier! I had to use my PRO navigation skills to find Amanda's ulu panjang salon :( I didn't get lost!!!... Well kinda. Halfway through Zegna called me to give me directions lololol #faillll.

So we walked around Bugis... Got myself a pretty dress from Kissjane :) nua-ed at Mos Burger sipping iced milk tea while waiting for the other 2.

Ashley came super late and she didn't even eat with us cus she had to leave earlier to do project :(

Pictures by Amanda's Olympus pen!! Really wanna get one ahhhhh! ^.^

Manda, Daddo!! ^_^

Miffy-San :)

Manda : wa got the 那些年 feeling.

Simi!! LOL.

Ashley: OPPAAAA~~~~~~

Hahahaahhah!

He was talking to Ash and I was like making him twist hahahah! :)

Ray likes candid shots -_-"

We were having some "picnic" at some grass patch near ACM. Nice environment ^.^~

Wanted to spam pictures but Manda's camera died. ....

Mandaaaa~ ~

Hehehe QT pieeee.

Lookey!! Hello kitty bumper haha!

Heheeeee.

Amanda: U TWO TAKE!

Lionel: _|_

Lol?!?!?!?!?!

Amanda: gimme an A&F pose.

Daddo: HUH?? I DUNNO HOW!!!!

Pudz camszzzz. :)

#likkafierceguy.

Heh nomzzz. I miss the garlic prawns already! :o

But the rest say it ain't nice so we'd prolly go some other place next time....~

Oh! I was surprised to know both guys still read my blog. Awwwww :) You two are suckers but heh!! Lurbedubzz! :)

Can't wait to see Amanda and Ash again! Didn't get to talk to Ash much cus she was in a hurry and all. :( I had this mini talk with Amanda and awwww.... :) it was nice telling things which you've kept to yourself to someone.

Anyway, reached home late :( and I really wanted to sleep secretly in the office today cus I was super sleepy.... So I was thinking of sleeping early tonight but I'm still watching 团圆 on 855. Super love that show! Okay, more like I like VV dramas that has to do with family family stuff. Sooooo exciting :o

2012-01-29T16:00:00.001+08:00

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous ‘yes.’

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

‘Now,’ said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else —The small stuff.

‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So…

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

‘Take care of the golf balls first —
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled
‘I’m glad you asked’.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple cups of coffee with a friend.’

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Was tumblr-ing on my way home just now when I saw this.. It set me thinking. Things happen. Shit happens. Well all the time. What do I really want in my life now? I still have choices to make. But what choices am I going to make?

Yesterday my sister's friend read my palm and she said i "want to do this yet want to do that". (This kind of thing fascinates me o_o)

I was like thinking. Wow shit. Really. It's because my whole life I never really needed to make important decisions that could have severe consequences. Everything always seem to be planned out so well.

I wanna stay like that forever.

Obviously that's impossible. Nobody's gonna make decisions for me all the time.

2012-01-29T01:12:00.002+08:00

Yoooohoooo! ^.^ I just got home from my Sister's gathering at her house and I should be sleeping cus there's like area cleanin at Cabana tomorrow but.... I somehow can't seem to fall asleep yet.

There's a lot on my mind :/ gosh.

Oh-Kay!! So my sis organised this gathering to like chill with her friends. She always has this kind of gathering out of the blue. Like make use of any occasion to have such things one lol. She LOVESSS playing host. I'm like the total opposite from her ~_~

So this morning I went to bedok inter first to finally collect my pay and bank in the money, then headed to ECP to get something for the idiot Zegna and then headed down to her house :)

Oh, I was like trying to deposit my money into the damn machine, it didn't want to accept them. And I couldn't pull the notes out. :( they were STUCK!!! I was freaking out in front of the machine and desperately trying to pull them out. I did manage to but... My $50 tore :( Heng the machine still accept ah!!! :/

K so I managed to survive on the $50 ezlink card my sis gave me hehe!! Then together with an angbao from her, she gave me another one with $80 inside. Hehehe!!! For a month or so, I don't need to worry about my transport fee!!! Heh!!! Thanks jappie!!!! ~

My second favourite thing (ER... Shit I can't find another word for "thing") in her house: fluffy Chloe Chan~ (first being my sis of course hahahahahahahah!)

I think she wasn't really in the mood for pictures cus she was kinda chou chou and her hair was damn messy cus my sis didn't have the time nor energy to bathe her. I offered to help!!! I think she was afraid i'd drown Chloe or something omg.

But nonetheless, she's simply a fur ball of cuteness!!! :)

First thing I did when I went there... Grab a packet of milo. Heheheeee seldom drink it ever since I stopped school :( it reminds me of Mich Val Germ and Ju cus we always drink it in school :(

Second thing.... Grab the Haagen dasz!! Wahhahahahahahaaaaaaa.

It was kinda my lunch.... Crazy but whatever it was awesome :D

Strawberry jelly hearts my sis ordered from edsjh.

Samsui chicken from Soup Restaurant. Noms ttm!!

Heheee popcorn!!!

And what I love love love in Cheng tng, winter melon slices. So sweet so sweet!!!! ^.^

And for dinner we had more.. Lol... Seriously I tell my sis everytime i meet her I'll gain like 5kg cus she always feeds me!

And then we took Polaroids yay!

Teehee :)

I'm gonna get a Polaroid of my own soon! :) gonna ask my sister's friend order online for me. Heh! Sis said she wanna get it for me as a belated birthday gift.. But don't want lah!!! She already paid for the Wicked Musical ticket which I think can buy 2 Polaroid cameras o_o

So I'm gonna use my pay to get one hehe. And besides, that way I'll cherish the camera even more! (not that I don't cherish the things she gives me la.. I do!!! ^.^)

2012-01-25T23:29:00.001+08:00

I've been fretting over so many things it's kinda driving me crazy. It's not like how it used to be, like I only had to worry about school and all but now it's like I'm even mentally calculating in my head how much I need to survive for a week and I can't overspend (well at least until my pay comes in lah).

*big sigh*

If this is how life's gonna be, can I just be a student forever? I don't mind really :( (if the subjects are interesting)

It's getting closer to February which means its getting closer to March too and I'm have jitters now and then whenever I think about my A's results. Like really, everyone expects me to do well get straight As do better than my brother. It's crazy!! I don't even have that confidence in myself. Where do they get that idea from? :(
Honestly I didn't give 100% to that damn exam, sadly. :( I even told my dad to prepare his pockets in case I need to fly to somewhere to attend university or something. Owell, at least my sis will have additional places to visit if she's on leave. ~_~

So it's like day 3 of Chinese new year and it hasn't been very eventful on my side o_o other than the 5 hours at home on Tuesday when the cabana people came over. It would been great if my house had the "no smoking" rule implemented. I nearly died inhaling all the smoke. I couldn't breathe properly till I went out of the house. Like away away from the house. Yes that bad ~_~

I've been like watching movies everyday since Sunday..

Sunday: 孩子不坏
I really liked it and it made me cry cus I was so sad for the girl when her hair was cut off cus I was thinking of my own hair T_T"
Monday: Journey 2 : Mysterious Island
Impromptu decision to watch it with Zegna & his friends. It wasn't exciting enough. That's for sure ~_~
Tuesday: Haywire
Caught it with Zegna Raymond & Manda. Stupid show. It's supposedly "highly rated" but it's so stupid!!! Even the action parts are like bleah. Yeah the lead actress is a good fighter (looks genuine) but why the fighting scenes no music?! So it's like seeing 2 people punch here punch there with no climax and all. Their storyline is non existent. Or maybe it's just me but the 4 of us couldn't get the show. It's seriously all over the place and the ending is bullshit. Sucker. -.-"
(pssssst Ray, next time cartoon, kkkk? ^.^)

I've kinda been spending a whole lot more time with Zegna nowadays. (I even dragged him along to meet Ray and Amanda w me yesterday lol. Well partly for revenge cus he's always making me feel awkward w his ahbeng friends wahahahahahahaha)
It's scary cus it's like suddenly one but I guess it's okay cus I like don't need to be on my guard around him and it's like not as tiring cus I don't really need to 保持形象 that kind of thing. :) and I really have a looooot of crap to say to him ^^ (although the constant teasing from the Cabana staff really makes me -_-")

Oh yes I kinda have like a new resolution which may sound kinda dumb but it's actually super challenging for me....

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Grow my nails. :(

Yeah I have this super bad habit of biting/peeling my nails and they're so short and small now it's so difficult to even paint them -.-" Becky (ber's girlfriend) was like saying she'd teach me how to do some splash paint thingy if I manage to grow my nails lolololol. I'll try :D

And for now it's still puny muny..

2012-01-22T01:55:00.001+08:00

My holiday is becoming more and more busy because I recently took up a job at SPH as a temp admin assistant. Don't know if I should be happy or sad I'm less free than before.

Happy because I'm using my time for a better cause like earning money to feed myself instead of playing Neopets the whole day ~_~
Sad because I feel like I'm back in school all over again. Wake up early in the morning.. And do the same thing for the next 8.5 hours. Then return home like a zombie yet stupidly go to bed so freaking late and the cycle repeats for 5 days a week :(

But okay lah I guess. At least I have the rights now to have a proper "to-buy" list since it's my hard earned money ^.^ I already planned how to spend my first month's pay lol! Camera!!! *_* not the huge pro-ish DSLR.. Will be happy with a mini one :)

Even though the job scope is quite monotonous and boring, it's not too bad 'cus I get to use my phone and nomnom also lol!!! So usually I'll just whatsapp my colleague who's sitting inside and talk cock, draw some lame pictures and stick on other people's desk area and like munch on candies or something while doing work. Yes omg I know this job will make me fatter since I like sit for 8.5 hours and I keep eating to keep myself awake!! :(

Of course I need something to let me run around also.... So I didn't quit my job at Cabana. I'm not a workaholic like Eleanor says :( It's just that I really really really like working at Cabana 'cus the people there makes me happy! Even though some idiots see I toot toot one and like to bully me huh... (Hor Zegna Zheng?) and anyway if I quit again and join back in future I need to wait so long before I can step into the bar to learn! I just worked for the second time in the bar today! :) usually I'll be outside serving customers.. It's quite fun I guess apart from times when I encounter weird/guai lan customers :/ But I love love love working in the bar!!! Get to 偷吃 nuggets and my favourite part, make cocktails! :)

If I compare working and studying, I'd rather continue studying.
1) all I need to worry about is studies.
2) if I screw up, i only have to account to myself. Well maybe to my family but what can they do? O_o
3) nobody will use the excuse of "you got money cus you got work" to not give me money T_T
4) dad treats me exceptionally well during my exam period.
5) CHEAPER TRANSPORT FEE. (yes I'm still so sore about the adult fare!!!)
6) less tiring....

But what to do? I can't be forever 18 and a student although I want to be lah lol. Suck it up and live with it lor!! :/

For now.. I need to make time for people :( I haven't seen Eleanor since like.... I can't even remember. And she's always complaining how much of a workaholic I am. Heh heh heh I know you'll understand, right woman?? :D

Well it's gonna be a long weekend!! ^_^ I hope things go well...~ life has been so f up for me I kind of forgot how it felt to be truly happy :(

2012-01-16T01:06:00.002+08:00

Just came back from supper at airport with my sis after she returned from Bangkok with Brendan Korkor :) had nomnoms at TCC!

Some mushroom pasta! Mogu overload omg I can still feel the mushroom floating in my tummy XoX

Dark devotion!!! Chocolate lava cake ahhhhh. I've never eaten it before so I thought this was like godly. But my sis says there are better ones. O_O whoaaa. I think the cake itself added like 2kg to my weight -_- it's so sinful!! But my sis was like "nvm share half the fats with you" -_- lol!!!

K so she dropped me home via cab before heading home herself :) so exciting! This coming Friday she'll be coming to my house with Brendan Korkor to meet my dad!! ^_^

They're supposedly "still dating" but Aiya. 99.9999% confirm that they'll be together lololol.

(Pssttt Elenor, if you're reading this and going O_O?!? I'll explain it to you soon hahahahaha!)

Soooo now I'm finishing up my cutie pie's picture before heading to bed and then work tomorrow X_X

She's so pretty!! ^_^~

K night!!! :) I can't wait for this week to be over cus next week there'll be a cabana gathering at my house!!! Hahaha I just love spending time with them!! ^_^

2012-01-11T18:38:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, I was supposed to meet my sister at 1 for lunch at Soup restaurant.. Their Samsui chicken with the garlic is the bestest of the bestest-est LOL!!! It's god-like seriously! Maybe it's just their garlic huh...

It's like the food can be so-so but the sauce can make it WHOAAA. Like the fish in Putien. There's this fish dish (forgot which fish but it's super cheap in the market) which they sell. It's like quite ex even though the cost price is damn cheap maybe cus the sauce that comes with the fish is waaaaaaahhhhh. *salivates*

Shit man these few days I keep getting hungry easily!! I'm gonna gain back all the weight I lost and the next time Ashley sees me she won't say I 瘦了 but instead 肥了 :( always TRY to convince myself to go running but obviously quite fail lah!!! The only time I ran voluntarily was with Michelle after A's ended.... Apart from that it's either P.E or when my sister used to force me when I was a kid -_- yah I remember I was so tired I started crying and complaining. Of course lah!! I was forced to what :( plus I was such a cry baby last time. K maybe now too...

K and also now I started work (at SPH as a temp admin assistant. The job scope is quite boring but okay lah at least I learn quite a bit of stuff so far) so all the more I won't have time to!!!! D: yes I know I'm just creating excuses for myself. Blaaaaa.

Back to topic!!!!!! So because my poor sissy works the crazy midnight shift which starts at 9pm and ends in the wee hours, she slept super late and was late :( so by the time she reached, Soup Restaurant close liao... :( but it's okay Jappie :D at least you're ordering the Samsui chicken for the gathering at your house HEHEHE.

Change of plans so we went to Sushi Tei!!

It was quite crowded and we got the window seat which was super bright.. Couldn't change seats cus the only available ones were the bar ones :( my sis was like squinting throughout cus she has apparently transformed into a vampire after her night shift started. She seldom sees the sun lol!

Agadeshi tofu!!! Loveeeee tofuuuuuuu. Hehehe.

Mini golden roll :) this is my fave dish at Sushi Tei (hmmm actually I seldom go there but somehow everytime I go there i'll have this) it looks soooo yummy but we over-ordered and I was so full I ended up digging out the prawns and leaving the rice :(

Played this mini game with my sis! "Who Am I?"

It was a christmas exchange gift from Leona! I suck at the game because I don't know like 3/4 of the names on the cards in the game ~_~

Heheheeee sis gave me allowance ^_^ haven't deplete yet :D

Grilled chicken!!! NOM NOM. Since I can't eat beef anymore.. Chicken has replaced beef as my face meat lol.

Miffy-San sun tanning hahahahaha.

Sis ordered sushi only. And she didn't finish them -_- I think she's secretly controlling her diet to lose 20kg so she can get married soon hahahahahaha.

:D loveeeeeee.

Do we look alike? Hmmmm. Some people say we do but some don't. Apparently she looks a lot like my mommy but I er.. Don't look like my dad nor mom. ~_~

My brother looks like my dad too. So they both took the "look alike" genes and left me with none :( lololol.

2012-01-10T01:35:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to Val Chiang dan dan!!!! :) <3

Thinking back about life in J2.. Gosh I love my apple tree friends :)

2012-01-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

Had fun today spending time with 3 very awesome people!!! My sis, Amanda & Ashley!

Met my sister for lunch @ Vivo!! :D Shall wait for her to upload the pictures before I blog about it :)

Then around 5 plus, went to Bugis to meet Amanda for steamboat @ Chuan Yi Pin!

Hello Kitty beanie I bought from Bugis street while waiting for Amanda. It's for my sister!! ^_^

Amanda was so bloody hungry she took like damn a lot of food and she refused to talk to me until she was "10% full" LOL

Her face is like "Omg food!!!" Hahahaha!!

Yummmehhhhhh.

We ended up cooking garlic prawns and garlic golden mushrooms which was super yummy. Secret recipe the two of us know.. Hahaha!!! :D Ok lah actually its nothing. Just add garlic and sugar. Yesss garlic and sugar tastes quite nice together ^_^ won't laosai one lah.. Both of us are still fine by now hehe.

So we kinda talked cock, talked about bitches and guys and all.. Aiya typical girl talk one hahaha. I love this kinds of talks with her 'cus the issues she finds in her school.. I seldom see them in mine so... Hahahaha kinda interesting!!!

JC people are nice... Fullstop. Lol!! #stereotype

After that we headed to Starbucks @ The Cathay to meet Ashley! :)

Amanda: WOW so artistic.

Lololol. Random: "artsy fartsy" reminds me of Hui Ling who said "Artsy Fantasy" by mistake. But it was hilarious la lol.

Miffy-san!!! :)

Then headed to the outside area to take picturesssss hahaha.

Pictures were taken by Amanda's camera which I've decided I want to get!! My teacher has the same camera and she told me she loves it. Amanda seems to like the camera too so..... :D

It's the Olympus Pen series if I didn't remember wrongly...

I don't know I have a thing for cameras that go CHA-KEEEEEE and like vibrate a lil when you take a picture. I don't know why!! Lol!!!

I don't really want a DSLR because it's huge... I just want a cute mini one ^_^

But the colours are really ugly.. :( I think it's just black, white, silver those kind of colours.. And a very pale pink which looks like silver to me. And a very gay looking purple. I don't want!! T_T

I went to google and I kinda saw this...

Like whoa but then again I don't know if this is good leh :/

AHHHH. Headache headache. Jappie helpppppppp. :(

2012-01-04T03:58:00.001+08:00

Class 10/10 BBQ @ Coasta Sands Downtown east :)

I don't really like the chalet there. Kinda regretted not suggesting to Marc to book NSRCC.. It's like bigger, cleaner and nicer there!!

Oh wellzzzz. I didn't stay though, went back home, played Neopets and now I'm nua-ing on my bed having my daily night routine of whatsapp with my sister~

Pictures that Germaine took:

2012-01-01T23:04:00.008+08:00

It's the first day of the new year, 2012! :)

Have been spending my Christmas eve and New Year's Eve working at Beach Cabana (my Dad's place) instead of going for parties and countdowns with my Sister and friends :(

What to do.... I need the money! Plus, I really have fun working there. I don't know why. I don't really have much interest in F&B, like I don't give a damn if there's peanuts in Chivas (if I didn't remember wrongly what Eleanor told me lol) or how we should do this and that... But the people there really make me smile no matter how sucky I feel inside. They are all a super nice bunch (well except for a few which I really dislike) and I'm so glad to be part of the team! ^_^

Aaron, Uncle Dave, Angus, Me, Ah Ber and Bing Hui @ Area A! :)

(Zegna, if you're reading this PLEASE don't say anything)

My 2011 was.... I can't exactly find an adjective to describe it because the first half of it was really great but the second half was disastrous 'cus I broke up with Audric and had to juggle between my stupid aching heart and the damn A Levels.

I was soooooo emo I even thought of quitting school. Yea it's coming from someone who always believes education is EVERYTHING. I guess emo people think crazy things? Well at least I only thought about it.. I wouldn't have the courage/ability to really do it anyway.. I'd prolly get stuffed with chocolates until I die or pushed down the stairs... (My sister threatened to do that to me if I flunk my A's. Well... We won't know till March!)

But I'm glad the shit is over lah. Well of course it takes time for a broken heart to heal but it's going well.. Slow and steady.

Apart from losing him (which was almost my whole life 'cus he basically took up 90% of my time and everything hmm..), I kinda lost a best friend too. Well the story is complicated and only a few of my closer friends know what happened.

I'd prolly die of emo-ness if it weren't for those people that stood by me and all. Here's a few....

My Sister.

I always believed that having an elder sibling who is like much older (not like 1 year difference like me and my brother) is awesome 'cus when you're at a delinquent age, crazy and vulnerable, they're already matured and looking over you to make sure you don't become some useless bummer who end up sniffing drugs at some dark alley or something.... (ok that went on too far)

But after my parents split, things happened, we got separated, we seldom talked anymore. I rarely got to see her.. Maybe like once a year at major events? Like my grandma's funeral or something...

Come to think of it now, it's really sad :(

I kinda treated my Sis like... I can't find a word for it. Like I only went to her when I needed her. Up to the point when her boyfriend told her to heck care me. But she didn't lah 'cus she said there's this special bond between us that nobody will ever understand. *Wah, cries*

She was there for me, talked to me, hugged me when I was so freaking sad when I went to find her some day preciously (I haven't had that in such a long time. It felt really warm and nice T_T) and everything lah.

Whenever I tweet about something emo, she finds happy things to tell me, inspirational words for me, and tells me that I'll have my part 2 just like Pocahontas did. Lol.

And when she finds out I don't have enough money to spend (I have no allowance during holidays T_T) she tries to give me money but of course I don't take it since she has so much of her own stuff to settle already lol. Yes I'm so dong shi I know hehehehe. LOL.

So after that I came to realize that no matter what, blood ties are seriously the most important. No matter what happens, she was will and always will be there for me ^_^ And of course I will too, even if nobody else in our family stands on her side. (Long story. My family is seriously kinda screwed.......)

Right now, our relationship is mending and I'm sooo glad to be part of her life again... :)

Thank you Jappie! Muacks!!! ♥ ♥

My Apple Tree friends, especially Michelle.

I see the 3 of them like 5 times a week then 'cus of school...

So they basically saw me become from :D to :) to :| to :( to D: to ;_; to T_T to *want to die already*.

I really don't remember how the 3 of us became that close. (The group name is 'cus of some primary school game Germaine made us play with her lol!! ... We are the best of friends, under the apple tree~ Slide down the rainbow, into the toilet bowl!....) But yeah they never ever fail to make me laugh in school :) We pon school to go USS together, gossip together, create weird secret names for some people (voyeur lol), study together, bully Germaine together.. Hehehe.

We have our bad moments when we're pissed at each other.. I think mostly at me 'cus I always flare up all of the sudden. But of course after a while I'll cool down la.... But at the end of the day we always forget bad feelings and just have fun together :)

It has only been like 2 years, well actually only 3/4 of a year 'cus we only started being close this year, but it seem as if we've been through quite a lot...

Just school alone brings about a whole load of shit already... Break-ups... Family issues... Haiiii..

Well anyway, seeing me starve myself (not on purpose!! I simply did not have the appetite...), they bought me food and forced me to eat, tried to make me smile but telling me lame jokes and making stupid faces, listening to me and just accompanying me when I cry and cry and cry.

Michelle would deliberately find some excuse to stay back in school to study with me because I have the habit of studying in school after it ends (eh.. Nearing the exam period lah.. If not I not so chiong one.) so that I would have company and wouldn't end up thinking about stupid things and crying my heart out alone in the canteen...

Yes I could tell she was desperately trying to find an excuse to stay behind with me even though I told her I was okay.

She would analyze situations for me (lol sounds damn lame), be my messenger, listener, and just talk to me for hours without doing her work..

The 3 of them even came by to surprise me one day 'cus I was so sad but I went out and stayed out for the whole night so they stayed over at my place without me being here lol epic sleepover. But I really appreciated that soooo much 'cus it was a holiday I think... I can't really remember but they just planned silly things to do. They made cute masks (for idk what but it's still sitting in my shelf hehe) brought chocolates (supposedly happy food?), DVDs etc etc just to keep me company.... :) ♥

I don't really know how to express myself well :/ But I hope they know deep down inside that I really love them so much for being there for me when I really needed them.

Thank you 3 even though none of you ever comes here! ♥

For 2012, I hope we can all get super awesome results and get to maybe the same university so we can still see each other every other day!! :)

Eleanor Tan

We met online via Audition when I was like Sec3 (Year 2008) and we became super close then (with another guy called Darren) and I don't know why either! We could just laugh and laugh about EVERYTHING until we cry and our laughter turns silent and our tummy hurts.

It's amazing how she's the #1 person even up till today who has the ability to make me laugh till I wanna die the most even though we kinda drifted after we continued our tertiary education hm.. Funny things just happens when she's around. Like the other day her bimbo boyfriend couldn't differentiate our voices via the phone and he was panicking and ahh-ing into the phone and also we were riding the trishaw bike thingy and chasing after Indians 'cus they indirectly challenged us to see who's faster but it was hilarious because we were so slow we couldn't even beat a little boy riding trainer wheels X_X Omg laughing like mad + cycling = no joke!!!

K anyway... We kinda drifted apart.. I guess it's normal for people who goes to different schools? Much less different kinds of schools?

But during the emo period, she suddenly called me one day telling me she saw KC and Wei Cong and whoever. Okay like she didn't have to call me just to tell me that but she did O_O And then, I was wriggling in my bed crying to myself -_-

So I tried to act normal.. But she went on asking "Eh.. You alright?" and I was like wtfhowdidsheknowimnotalrightdiditalkverysadly!? in my head. Then I kinda burst out in tears and vomiting everything out into her ears.

Then slowly slowly... Everytime something happened I'd call her and cry and she'd talk to me, tell me things that I NEVER knew about her omg. (But it's okay!! No judging. Still love ya ♥) And kinda made me feel better most of the times lah. :) Then she'd call me when she felt lousy at times about Paul or whatever also... :)

It's funny huh. You lose something but you gain something elsewhere too. It's like God knew I lost a friend dear to me and he gave me another one back.

Thank you Woman ♥ Like what you said, I hope we'll never drift apart ever again :) And of course for 2012 I hope you'll try to quit smoking (as much as its difficult~) and I'll try not to nag at you too much heheeee. Gosh sounds like I'm creating resolutions for you. Stick to it, pleaseeeee? ^_^

Yun Wei

He's my orientation group member and I don't know why we actually still talk. Like it's so weird. Hm kinda. But I'm glad we do lah! He's a super nice guy and he doesn't get pissed when I talk very angrily to him 'cus I'm pissed. Lol I mean some people would right? Like walao also not I make you pissed why you talk to me like that? Y'know y'know....

I still talk to 2 of my OGMs haha! The other one is George.. It's funny how I started talking to George again after the whole orientation hype. It's like I was studying alone in the canteen one day and he walked pass me and asked "You waiting for your SRJC boyfriend ah?" and I was like mouthing to him "we broke up" and he gave me the :O face. Like literally. The thought of it now makes me wanna laugh but it was kinda depressing at that moment. I was trying to study and he had to remind me of something sad lor :( But yea then he texted me after that and we've been texting until today OMG. Like on off on off kinda texts and also tweets. But kinda cool lah because I don't usually talk to people outside my class/CCA.. Not to say those not in my level lol. At times when I'm upset about things (could be anything) he'd text me "hugggggggs". Lol super lame but cute lah! :)

K but anyway.. Yun Wei was super nice 'cus before his promos ended, he's accompany me to NLB to study on weekends even though he had to wake up damn early lol. Then I'd disappear halfway to the toilet to cry and when I come back and continue sobbing at my seat he's quietly push tissue to me without pushing to ask what's wrong..

And sometimes when I go crazy and text him all in caps because I like super angry/pissed/sad all at once (of course at other things but not him la..) he just says things to make me feel better without getting pissed back at me lol. I mean I would if someone keeps lashing out at me as if it was my fault lah... Heh..... ^_^

For the 2 of my dear OGMS, I'll just hope for them that this year's A level paper will be MUCH easier than my year. :/

Amanda Lui

Lol I couldn't find a picture of her and me :( Actually there's one but there's another 2 people and I look really retarded so.. hehe just stole that from her Facebook.

I think throughout, she's the only one who truly understood how I felt about everything, about all the shit that happened. She'd like take time out to talk to me, cheer me up, knock sense into me.. All at the same time when she herself experienced relationship problems.

So mm.. :/

And she tries to include me in things that her group (Ray, Kai, Sa etc etc..) does and I tell her like I'm really glad she does that and she goes on saying how I shouldn't think that way and all.. I thought it was really nice of her 'cus we were never ever close to begin with. Like never.. We only knew each other through another friend (whom we both don't talk to anymore) yet she's still so nice and ti tie when I'm like damn sad.

I really enjoy just lazing at Starbucks, talking to Ashley and her. I don't know, it's just fun to me. Heh.

Thank you Manda (if you see this, ever)! :) ♥

It takes a lot to walk out of a place where you've been for a long time, where you've been comfortable in. Especially so if you're forced to do it.. But nonetheless, life has to go on.

Like what Ah Ber told me, when I'm sad, crying, and wanting to die, he's having fun and all. So why should I drop another tear for him?

But ya lah, of course talk is cheap. I still need time to get over this heart ache. Hais....

I think I haven't made New Year's Resolutions before.. I shall start this year? :) Well hopefully I can continue on next year without the world ending yet...

1. Lose another 10kg!!!!

2. Spend more time with my Sister :) (I'd say family but I don't really want to with some of them lol)

3. Make an effort in keeping my close friends :)

4. Take up a new language

5. To love and pamper myself more.

Wish me luck!!!

Oh wait... I need more luck for my results first... T_T

2012-01-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

SIGH!!!!!!! Sometimes I really think I'm a loser. I don't wanna get bullied and I always try to stand up for myself yet I always feel so afraid to.

Omg my Sis will be rolling her eyes when she sees this......

Ugh whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

I guess I have TOO much to lose right now. I NEED TO WAIT T_T

Keep my face and die..

Or throw it aside first and survive.

2011-12-30T00:29:00.002+08:00

To Jappie~

Miffy: OM NOM NOM. (HEEEHEEE)

Omg can see uncle sengzai and Shaun in the background haha!!

2011-12-28T19:38:00.004+08:00

Genting Day 3!

Dad and friends decided to head down to KL :) they actually thought of going one utamah (??) which is near to Ashley's place!! But changed their mind and we went to Sungei Wang instead :(

Hotdog for breakfast hehe! It was so cold it became cold dog lol.

How can Genting be that cold? :( I've been having family vacations there for almost all my life (or most of) and I never remembered it being so cold!!! :/

Oh yes, at KL, saw this pig thing in someone's car which reminded me of the pig pig zhu in some VV drama show LOL. Can't see the face though :(

I just noticed the black thing in the pic that looks like a bug doctor (those cartoon one) holding a needle lol.

What does it look like to you??

I don't really like this place :( the things are not very cheap/nice.

We had lunch at the Tbowl restaurant!!

Toilet bowl cup hehe.

Toothbrush in the menu lol.

The deco like damn weird also lah!! Why got some creepy man there one? :/

Hehe polka dot seat!!! ^_^ and my chio pink sneakers! LOL. I found them in the storeroom before my trip. Kinda forgot they existed.. Size 5!!! So surprised they still fit ^^

My "happy meal". Lol the food sucked. I only like the tofu. Maybe cus tofu all tastes the same that's why it can't get any worst?

Shopped for like 2 hours and got bored!!! :( went to old town to wait for our transport back.

Hungry mungry so we munched on...

Garlic bread haha!! It's not nice also lor!!! Even some chapalang bread shop in bedok interchange sells better garlic bread than this.. Old town white coffee one leh :/

It started to rain.... KL has really bad drainage systems.. After awhile the roads started "flooding". There were pools of water everywhere and the water just stays there. @_@

Oh well.... Singapore's one also ah.. At least in orchard. Flooded twice already :/

Omg talking about the orchard flood, I wrote that in my a level gp paper and I kinda realised I wrote out of point. AHHHH. 1 mark for AQ again? :(

Barney toy for Davis didi!! ^_^

It sings and it's throat will light up lol!

Back in the room.... I tried cleaning miffy with the toothbrush they gave. Heheeee. Let her suntan in the lamp to dry her up...

HEHEEE she's so cute ^_^

Everytime I pull her out from my bag to take a picture, my sm goes like "u think u 15 years old?"

Walao.. This one call young at heart can? Pfft :/ then again, most of the time she kinda picks on me. ~_~

2011-12-28T19:34:00.002+08:00

Genting Day 2!

I woke up with a fever :( I had a super scary dream that night! Actually I had 2 scary dreams.

One, I was nearly killed by someone who had a gun. I freaked out and had high fever in my dream. I could remember I was burning up in my dream :/ :( and I woke up after that having a fever. Omg. Second one, I was like pregnant. Wtf I swear the feeling is damn scary!!! ~_~

Coincidentally or not, both dreams lasted 2 hours each cus I woke up in intervals of 2 hours :/ felt really horrible!! :( it was soooo cold in the room too.. :(

Woke up around 8ish, went down to Starbucks for wifi to whatsapp Ashley! :) met her at the arcade area just an escalator down from the Maxim hotel for breakfast! We had KFC porridge hehe! My first time having it! It was okay I guess. I think it'll be nicer in Singapore right lol. No offence uh.. But that's kinda true for most food lah. And the service at the KFC there sucks. The service crew doesn't know the meaning of voiding items. Key means key liao.. Wth super inflexible. Ashley was like complaining in Chinese to me while that guy was very slowly collecting our orders. -_-

She treated me to breakfast however unwilling I was so I told her I'd treat her to Starbucks the next time we meet up in Singapore ^_^ she kept saying "this $2 nia!!!!" Aiya it's the thought that counts mah.. Haha!!

Yum!! Okay maybe cus I was hungry that's why it tasted nice LOL.

Omg jappie see in between miffy's eyes black black one :(

We went arcade.. First world to walk walk.. Talked and all. And haha!! Saw her play her first DDR game. SHE'S SOOOO CUTE LOL!!!! I kinda took a pic of her "dancing" but haha!! Shall keep it :p

She : "I can dance but cannot play DDR :("

Hahahah!!

Went back to the hotel at 11ish. Was feeling really feverish!! :(

Nonetheless, I went to have lunch with the adults. Went back to sleep after lunch while the rest went shopping and whatever. Slept for a good 6 hours. Wow.

Miracle candy that soothes my throat. Lol!!

It tastes really yummy and every time after I pop one my throat would feel MUCH better. My Dad's friend gave it to me cus she saw me coughing continuously hehe.

And guess what I found while surfing channels!!

Chang zai Xin!! ^_^

Went for dinner... (omg its like eat sleep eat)

Yup this was my dinner. I seriously had no appetite :( I didn't even finish the bread.

I lost one kg that day heh!!! (although gained back like at the end lah cus my appetite grew again -.-)

Some very weird honey lemon drink. :/

Heh my cute daddy~

2011-12-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

Genting trip day 1!

I'm currently nua-ing at Starbucks waiting for Ashley~ gonna meet her at the indoor arcade hehe ^^

As usual I dreaded the car ride there 'cus it was suuuuper long and very uncomfy to sleep :( I kinda popped two flu pills so I slept 9/10 the journey but my neck was aching T_T

And oh.. The one thing I'm super scared of in foreign countries : TOILETS.

Bad experience. The first time I saw a rat (which is disgusting enough) was in the toilet bowl in China. Walao phobia already!! That's why when my mum wanted to bring me go to see ice sculpture or whatever.. NOOOOO!!!!

That's where my bro and mom is now. So sad bro isn't here :(

Stopped by A&W!!! That stop reminds me of my childhood cus I used to frequent Genting as a kid and we always stopped by to have root beer float.... :)

Hmm but it doesn't taste as nice now...

Reached Genting around 7ish.. Gosh it was freaking 16 degrees Celsius. THE COLDEST EVAAAAA. I swear I nearly died walking outside in my knitted top and shorts. :(

Maybe that's why i'm having a fever now.. Delayed effect z.z

Hehehe miffy is cold too ^_^

Headed to some Chinese restaurant (the one outside the Casino)

Nommmmzzz!! Cus I was super hungry hehe.

The adults went to the Casino while I went to nua at Starbucks with Jala...

Toffee nut latte with extra sprinkles without me asking!! ^_^ the person asked me if I wanted extra I was like whoa cool haha!!

Whatsapp Ashley and she told me to go down to First world to find her and her friends.

All Ngee Ann poly band people. It was awkward but uh.... Ok laaaa.

Heh heh so cool seeing her in malaysia cus I usually only see her in Singapore lol!!

Sat some rides, walked around and then headed back to the hotel.

I felt kinda cui by then already :(

2011-12-23T00:28:00.005+08:00

Had macs breakfast with Zegna and Jason this morning before we headed to cine for 2 movies in a row.

Heh. I couldn't finish it.

First was New years eve. Then MI.

I liked bothhhhh. New years eve was by the same producer of Valentine's Day.. Right? I didn't really like vday but NYE was better. More humour. And the bloopers were funny lol.

Was damn sleepy during the second one (Mission Impossible. Yea I re-watched it) I kinda napped for 5 minutes lol. I think re-watching movies are good in some way 'cus I finally understood some parts of the movie..

I have difficulties understanding most of what the people are saying I have to resort to reading the Chinese subtitles. Omg :/ not as if my Chinese is fantastic or whatever la but I think I'm really bad at listening quickly. (like how I have to read the subtitles when I'm watching VV drama. That's why I can watch tv silently haha! Skill ;))

Okay mentioning about my Chinese.. The other day I was working @ Cabana and there was this group of monks (or what I thought they are) and they were all speaking Chinese so of course I had to. And they ended up asking me if I was from china.......

Does that mean I speak Chinese fluently? Ö

Yea I choose to believe so ok. Lol!

K anyway.. Z kinda left to find his friend so I just walked around, talked cock and had dinner with Jason.

Okay it was awkward!! 'cus I seldom talk to him although we worked on the same day and all. Okay actually I seldom saw him open his mouth too lol. But ahhhh it was okay eventually. It was reallllyy difficult coming up with proper topics to talk about 'cus we're both kinda introverted. (Oi I am ok. To strangers at least lol)

That's when I actually noticed a trend.

My sister is like friendly and talkative to almost anyone, stranger, friend's friends (I remember she's always very nice to my friends. That's why sometimes when my friends' siblings like very dao I feel a bit sian lol), friends etc etc. (even dodgy taxi drivers).

My bro is like a mouse OMG he doesn't open his mouth to talk to strangers at all. And when people talk to him he'll answer damn softly and just smile smile and then shut his mouth again. (ok la different issue when he's with his friends....)

I think I'm somewhere in the middle... Closer to my brother's introverted-ness :/ (no there's no such word but you get what I mean huh)

WA how!? I need to become more sociable :/ and oh have a more friendly face -_- friends keep telling me I have a very dao face and they didn't want to be my friend the first time they saw me OMG T_T"

Like what my sis always say....

"blame your mother lor"

LOL.

Anyway!! I brought Miffy out again :) and the two of them were laughing at me. Walao :(

(btw Jappie, Miffy dirty liao :( can wash? The bell bell will spoil? :/)

Dinnerrrrrrr. Yummmmmy although too much cheese and i felt damn gerlat after the meal urghhhhhh. @.@

Otw home w pudding camera lol.

K time to sleep now got work tomorrow :( :( :(

2011-12-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

Went for a picnic with my secondary school juniors just now~
I was like the oldest there :( Omg :(
Thank goodness the weather today was nice!! :D Rained for just awhile and it was cloudy most of the time. No sun no sun! :)

We had a present exchange!

My present from Leona! :) It's a game! Quite cool! ^_^ And it's so small too! Can just shove it into my bag. (Haha Eleanor! Next time we can play something else other than monopoly deal :P)

Shervonne brought the speaker thing along lol and they were like blasting music.

Miffy-san was comfortably sun-tanning in my bag ^_^

And she tries to get into the festive mood! :D Hahaha!!

^___^

I'm watching Death Note 2 now on TV and the death god thing (is that what it's called?) still scares me :/
Come to think of it, it's kinda similar to the Jigsaw doll from Saw. And I'm like terrified of that :(

2011-12-18T18:42:00.003+08:00

After lunch with Ray and Manda on my birthday, went to Central to find my Sis and her friend!

I got a balloon!!!!! ^___^

Haha heeeeh!!~ :D

Thank you jappie!!!

We walked from Central to Liang court. Elmo got drenched and he stopped floating!!!!!

But my sis like dried him and he started floating again hahaha.

Then we headed to some ramen shop~~

Wanwen Jiejie ^^

Sis & her friend, Nat!

Idk what ramen is this hut it was ok la.... I couldn't really eat a lot :/ :/

BUT!!! THE EGG WAS nommmmzzzzz!!!

The yolk gushes out like swooooshhhzzzzz.

*_*

After that, went for dessert, pudding!!

See how much my sis ordered?!? It was yummy la but still...!!!!!!

^^ <3

Haha!! He looks likka handyman!

Went to the Japanese supermarket to get some stuff.

The Japanese rice is called 纯情米 (is it!?) something along that line! Thus explaining the weird pose hahahha.

Thank you jappie & friends for that day!!

Lubdub!!! <3

2011-12-18T17:23:00.001+08:00

Rotting at POMO now with Eleanorrrrrr.
It's so EMPTY here!! Omg the organiser really suck at choosing location :/ scape would've been so much better. ~_~

2011-12-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Finally got to see both of them at once after such a long time. It has been like years since I saw Janson & TK also! ^_^

Somehow I really miss what we used to do. It's not like now when our lives are like plagued with problems and issues (well at least for mine la, compared to the past)

And see what this girl did while we were busy eating?

"pudding camera is sooooooo fun!!!! ^_^"

Lol!!!!

Dahren & Eleanorrrrzzz.

Well this is what happens when I turn on the flash of my camera. Haha!! It turns blue because of the stitch cover. The effect quite cool right hahaha.

Well, we went to watch Mission Impossible.

The whole time before we entered the cinema, I thought we were watching New Year Eve. Then when we entered the cinema (late cus we kept dilly dallying lol) dahren was like "THIS IS MI! I watched it yesterday!! Confirm MI!!!"

Uh ok....

But it was nice!! ^_^ super exciting. Janson is super cute. He was like sitting next to me. He's like the first guy I've seen who watches a movie and like shows his emotions. LOL.

You know how guys must be guys, scared or anything also cannot show 'cus must be "man" mah lololol.

But Janson was like gasping and "omg!!"-ing with me at the exciting parts LOL.

And when I turned to look at him, his fist was like on his heart (yknow like you almost had a heart attack or something) and his face was like O_O

Omg HAHAHAHAHA.

K I don't think he'll read this so only Eleanor will know about this hehehe.

I'm like on the bus home nowwww. Need to get some sleep :( I still feel drowsy from my cough syrup. I had to force myself to wake up for Cabana briefing today. And it started close to 2 hours late OMG!!!! :( I could've slept for like an hour more and saved the $6 cab fare :(

I'm like going to flea with Eleanor tomorrow and I realise we haven't prepared A LOT of things. Walao!!!!! :/ I keep forgetting. Wahhhhhh. And it's very difficult for me 'cus I'm a must-have-plan-and-back-up-plan person. Ok most of the time back up plan fail one la but still... I really cannot make decisions on the spot that quickly. :(

Wols......

Needa drag a luggage of clothes to Eleanor's tomorrow. The thought of it is like.... X_X

And my eyes are really sore now. :(....

2011-12-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

Went for lunch today with Amanda and Raymond @ The Cathay :)

He looks like he hasn't slept at all o_o

Oh yes. This dude over here says I looked like a China girl in my makeup during prom.

What, really? :(

Anyway... Seeing both of them communicate is really entertaining. I mean, I think Amanda is the first girl that Ray keeps suaning and gl-ing and like she never ever gets mad.

That takes a looooot. I mean it's funny and all lah, but truthfully, I would be sad if it goes on continuously uh... (thank goodness ray doesn't do that to me. *phew* ray ni zui hao le! ^_^)

Got stranded at Cathay 'cus it was raining :(..

So we just walked around aimlessly... Got a starbucks gift card for gift exchange! The card's really pretty! :D I have 3 such gatherings to attend and omg I only have $100 (my birthday $$$) to last me till I get my miserable pay. SOB SOB. I'm broke already. And I keep buying clothes... :( even if I don't really have much $$$, I cannot control ahh!!! Cute dresses are just so ahhhhh~~~ ~_~

MONEY Y U NO DROP FROM THE SKY?? :(

Headed to Frolick while waiting for the movieeee!

Hehe miffy's so adorable ^_^

Manda let me try the lychee flavoured one. I still prefer Sogurt! ^o^

We were reading some fashion magazine and there was some personality test on how you draw pigs... Ok la super lame lol!!

And before we left Amanda wrote this behind one of the postcards that were given for free there.

Wonder what's the person gonna say when he/she sees this. Lololol.

Alvin and the chipmunks 3 was AHHHHH. So nice as usual!

I haven't watched a movie in what, 4 months? :/

The last time was supposedly on the "2nd best day of my life".

But ugh... Whatever it's all over now.

But anyway! During the movie Manda and I were like so excited and all, Ray was like -_- *SMS SMS SMS* "yea yea nice.." "shhh..." (cus I ask him CUTE RIGHT??) "*shake head*" (cus I asked him if he was sleeping)

Haha! He didn't wanna watch one.. Heheheeee thank you for giving in to us Ray!! ^_^~

After that, Manda headed to work, Ray went to find his friend and I went to find my Sister for dinner :) (had the best egg ever!!!!!!)

Okay I'll blog separately once she posts the pictures up... Hehe.

And if you're just wondering how I am right now?

I'm not completely fine but I'm alright I guess.

Life gives you shit, you pick it up, throw it back and then wash your hands and move on. I'm not gonna stay and let the shit stink me up. I really have to start seeing what I have. Instead of what I don't have.

Well, anyway, thank you Amanda and Ray for accompanying me today! <3

Meeting Eleanorzz tomorrow!~ ^^

2011-12-16T16:53:00.001+08:00

Haha! George sent me this today. I literally laughed out loud.
Lol!!!! :) he's so retarded sometimes haha!

Thank you Fong!

2011-12-15T19:36:00.003+08:00

I got a surprise from my apple tree friends today :) (Germaine, Michelle & Valerie)

They planned "activities" for me to do, treated me to lunch and got me a super cute schedule book :)

Michelle texted me yesterday asking about webcam.. (I think it was to ask if I was free). And then she kept changing her mind. So hmm suspect hahaha.

Met her at Bugis, Swensens at 2.30 today!

When we got in, I saw the reserved sign on the table then I knew what was going on already lah..

Haha!! But nonetheless, I love you three! Thank you for today although it was really kinda embarrassing! :)

K just realised I blocked like most of it lol.

1) wear this devil hair and and tell someone "you're an angel!"

2) smile & wink to 3 cute guys. I can't wink for nuts :(

3. Stare at a person. When that person looks back, pout and turn away.

4, sing happy birthday to yourself.

5. Role play roller blading across a crowded street-.-

6. Wave your hands like a jelly fish

7. Catwalk down the street #likeaboss. (mich brought sunglasses for me LOL)

8. Hug a lamp post and shout "I'm a lesbian". Okay then they changed it to "I love you, lamp post!"

Mich even videod me saying "ok" to the dares. AHHHH.

Mich's mega burger!

Teriyaki chicken nom. :)

Then suddenly.. Val and Germaind appeared with the ice-cream bowl. Hehehe.

I was like "I knewww ittttt"

Haha! But ok lah I wasn't super sure as well. Just felt suspicious. Nonetheless, it's damn sweet lah ^^

Miffy looks like she's eyeing the ice cream lol.

Idk why my hair looks even more cock today. :((((

And anyone would be able to guess my birthday wish! ^^

So we talked cock, ate, then went to take neoprints LOL.

Haven't done that in a SUPER long time.

Hehe! :)

Then after that they made me start the dares :( they sure had fun standing there and laughing at me lor!!! 1,3, 5, 6, 8 were less embarrassing. Wah the worst was 2 lor.. :(

Mich : "cannot wink ah? Ok go flick your hair. Or give the very "Sao" face."

!?!?!?!

In the end I just did something retarded to this Angmoh guy (like uncle lah. Not some cute Angmoh lol) and like announced it was my birthday to this group of guys at macs...

Wts :( can't wait for val's birthday. REVENGEEEE!!! >:O

But haha!! I still love them!! ^^

Cute schedule book from them! :)

They told me germ didn't know which design to buy.. Cus our taste very different. So she just bought the one that she didn't like. LOL!!!

And yes I like it! :) the pink ribbon is so cute ^^

Thank you three :)

2011-12-13T23:53:00.003+08:00

Had an impromptu meeting with Amanda and Ashley just now at Marina Square to "teach" them Economics haha! Ashley has microecons CT tomorrow and Amanda has like macro.

When I reached they were having Sakae buffet -_-! And desperately tryna finish the disgusting slimy looking Udon. :/ I don't remember Sakae being that disgusting. Then headed to Starbucks~

Haha! My Miffy doll food mascot! :) Her first picture! :P
I had the Toffee Nut Latte, ice cubed 'cus Eleanor says it's daaaamn nice. Omg it is lol!! :D

Amanda doesn't like coffee lol.. (Omg Eleanor, she's like Keith. Old person lol!!)

Studied... Talked.... Well I haven't had this in a long time. Really enjoyed just sitting around doing nothing :)

Ashley said I slimmed down a lot. Omg mad happy seriously!! Still continuing my diet... Haha not satisfied yet!! X_X

There's work tomorrow :( Ahhh. Maybe I'm meeting the two of them again on Thursday. Idk. Too bad Sa has common test till Friday. :/

Meeting Eleanor & gang on Saturday :)

Then, flea-ing on Sunday with Eleanor!! ^_^

I'm still wondering what I'm gonna do on Friday. For the past few years it has always been with the 3 of them but hmmm.....

2011-12-13T03:30:00.001+08:00

What have I been up to lately...??
Well.. Life's such a bore now. Like seriously I can recite what I do everyday because it's mostly just Neopets.

I have nothing better to do :/

But anyway.... I'm really happy because my brother actually got me this paintbrush in Neopets (usuki paint brush) which costs like 1.8million NP for my birthday! ^_^

I don't know why I play for so bloody long already but I'm still so poor.

Sometimes I really wished my sister's account didn't get hacked or something. Omg... She'd be like one of the richest now lor..!!! :/ I shan't say anymore. I can imagine her sighing once she reads this..

I wonder how many people actually understand what I'm saying? But ah...!!! My pretty pretty pet!!! <3
(she was named and created by my sister!!! I still remember she asked me "what colour you want? I said red even though her name is Bluepebbles -.- after creating, I changed my mind and my sis had to go buy a blue paint brush (which wasn't very cheap then, I think?) to change her colour. Awwww!!!!! :D I mean if it was me I'll be like -.-" *facepalm* lol!!!)

2011-12-09T22:37:00.014+08:00

Prom night yesterday :)

I guess this will be the first and last prom I'll be attending lol.

I didn't go for prom during Sec 4 'cus Sam, Cheng Tat and I thought it was stupid and we went to eat dinner instead while Sa went.

Well.. I still think it's a bit dumb but ah, it's just the "atmosphere" there.

I was REALLY unenthusiastic about it at first.

Michelle brought me to buy make-up and everything... Then asked me to try it out myself and I did. Quite fail lah.. So I was thinking if all goes wrong, I'll just go there without make-up and with a messy hairdo lol. Yeah, that was how sian and emo I was the other day.

Like totally fuck care everything and just sleep. (IT'S SO STUPID I KNOW!!!!!!! I know my Sis will roll her eyes and say I'm just torturing myself. I'm TRYING!!!!!!)

But a day before, Ju texted and asked if we wanted to hire a beautician to do our make-up and hair. It's like $50 per person. But ah, why not? Once in a life time anyway.

So I went to Germ's house with Ju and her Mum. Her Mum was the one who introduced the beautician. I think Ju's sister hired the same one for her wedding also. So her Mum wanted to be there to see the process. Sitoh and Peiwen were there as well.

The beautician was really friendly! :)

I was telling her how cool her job is.. Always making people so pretty and all, and she kept saying (in chinese): "Study good lah! Don't do this. No future one" Lol....

I put falsies for the first time ever!!!!!!!!! It was like so exciting lol!!

I think it's really cool but.... It's SUPER uncomfortable. It felt like my eyelids was 100x heavier and I couldn't blink properly :( My eyes were super sore I tore them out even before I reached home.

I should get used to make-up soon... ~_~

So after that Germ's dad sent us (Ju, Germ, Jia Xin and me) to Marina Mandarin :)

He picked up Jia Xin at Tanah Merah. She was complaining how overdressed she was on the bus and how everyone was staring at her lol.

Omg I still can't believe I was thinking of taking bus there if Ju didn't text me :/

Wts.

Ju :)

And Germ~ She kept complaining that her dress makes her look like a bird because of the puffy skirt -_-?

With Jia Xin too :)

First thing we did when we reached was to rush into the toilet lol. So typical girls.

See Germ and her poofy skirt! So cute lah!! it makes her look likka ballerina~~

I like her curls!

But I didn't dare to curl my hair because I just rebonded it last week!

Okay, but the beautician was like tying and braiding and spraying hair spray on my hair. Omg I could subconsciously hear my hair crying for help. :(

But what to do..... :(

My classmates!

YiJia, Yak, Me, Germ, Ju, Jia Xin and Jia Ming :)

Desmond!

Actually he was supposed to book in yesterday. Yeah like the earliest of the enlistment lol. Damn swuay! But fortunately he managed to defer for a day so he could attend prom lol.

I'm pretty sure Yak took this picture. Out of maybe 10 pictures he took, 10 was half black 'cus he keep blocking the flash :(

Mich and Yak :) So cute lah he looks like her Dad 'cus he's so tall and she's so small.

Germ, Ju, Deniese, Me and Michy :)

My Apple Tree friends! Without Val :(
I think she was on the plane back from Korea... So we took picture with the Christmas tree and pretended it was her.

Lol at least we chose something pretty hehe.

Michy ♥

I forgot his name omg shit lol.

I only know him through Yun Wei earlier this year when I was at the Arts Hub and Yun Wei was talking to me and he came along and talked to me assuming I was a J1... And he was like so shocked when he knew I was a J2 hahaha.

I presume that's a compliment ah huh.

He's pretty nice too :)

Yun Wei!!! :) One of the two OGMs I still talk to.

He was like standing at the door as a... Ticket checker? Idk lol. (SC saikang warriors!!!) And I kinda ran over just to take a picture with him hahahaha.

Punched our tickets, registered for lucky draw, then went to our seats~ We got table 17!

It was the furthest table from the stage... 'Cus we kinda handed in payment quite late huh.

But never mind~ It didn't really matter lah lol.

Guys at my table :)

Rid, Desmond, Marc, Javan, Yak and Chin How.

My VP who was super under-dressed..?

Oh, before the activities started, the emcee was like announcing for us to take our seats and everything. I was thinking in my head "Hm this person sounds like Adam"

And guess what. It was really him -_-

Michelle and I were like OMG IT'S HIM!

Played some games... Lol quite entertaining I guess.

"Raise your index finger and point to the shortest person at your table!!!"

Guess who????

Hahaha! She was deperately pointing to Chin How but failed. Lol!

Turns out, we were supposed to pass the balloon around when the music was playing and when it stopped, the person who had it was supposed to inflate the balloon until it bursts.

Germ was the swuay one.

But she inflated it for like 2seconds!? Then took a fork to poke it and it burst.

(Y)

Girls at my table! :)

The waitress that served the food at our table had a twin sister working there. So she was like doing something and I saw someone behind her who looked exactly like her and I was like OMG is that your twin sister? Then the both of them like smiled and nodded.

I think I scared her. But I tried to talk to her and make her feel less anxious mah :(

But I only managed to find out she's 15 -_- 'cus she kinda ran away.

What! I mean from experience, I like it when customers talk to me when I work at Cabana. Make me feel less nervous and kan-chiong what :/

Okay, unless it's some uncle who always try to disturb me by asking for "discounts" and everything. -_-

Another game we played. Tying 10 things to a string.

1. Heels.

2. Black sock.

3. 5c coin.

4. Lipstick

5. Glasses.

6. EZ link card.

7. Belt

(K i forgot 2)

10. 3 ply of toilet paper -_-

Groups of guys literally RAN to the toilet. Michelle ran there also LOL. Super on.

But she came back complaining because the bad thing is, Marina Mandarin toilet got no toilet paper!! Their toilet paper is like napkin looking. I wonder how some people actually got the toilet paper -_-"

And she was saying how some outsiders in the toilet got a shock when people started running in for toilet paper. ...

Then around 940 TA called us out for section picture :)

Nyx

Haha mad love :)

Then while discussing STJ and Christmas party with the 3 of them outside... I spotted two people nua-ing on the sofa....

Wei Ling and Yang Peng!!!
They didn't come but they kinda came to "crash" lol.

Then when I realised the Gaga boy was performing, I rushed back in. Haha!
He's super cute!!!! Okay I call him the Gaga boy 'cus he always dances to Lady Gaga's songs at events. First was during orientation.

I think his name is Mayden or something like that? Lol I'm not very sure.

Then Adam made everyone do the hokey pokey dance lol.

Okay it was very kiddy but super fun 'cus we kept running around the table and everything. Hahaha.

Mango sago!!! (And Javan's very cute face)

Damn yumz but couldn't eat much :( Aiya prom isn't about the food anyway...

Sharmane :)

With Azri! :) She didn't sit with us 'cus she was with her bowling mates.

Mich : EE WHY SO BLUR!! Lousy camera! I use Sharmane one I very pro lor!!

Hehe loveeeeee her!

With Azri~

And I'm barefooted 'cus I really couldn't tahan already.

I'm used to flatforms but not heels :(

Yakky yak yak :)

Yi Jia!

Jia Ming :)

The first thing I did when I saw him was show him my falsies and ask him "do I look more Jap now!?"

Haha 'cus he's always telling me I look Jap.

Jorene~

Lynn and Crystal!

Jun Wei, Mr Prom King~

(My OG mate from before haha)

Lester~ OGL of OG6 too :)

Jamie Pang & Michy.

I had to DRAG Michelle over for this! At first I asked Mich, "Eh you want take picture with Jamie? She over there only!! I ask Lester for you!!!"

She : "NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!"

After a few seconds, can see her face changing = mind changing.

So I dragged her over and asked Lester if she can take picture with Jamie.

Lester : "She (Jamie) always say she (Michelle) very cute!"

Me : "OMG? She (Michelle) always say she (Jamie) very pretty!!"

I swear Michelle was literally JUMPING for joy after that.

Bet she waited 2 years for this. Hahaha.

Ben and Germ. Naw :)

We had to drag them together as well. Haha mad cute!!!

Qi Sen and Nicks :) 4/3 classmates~

Bobbits! (Hehe I'm taller)

Nicks :)

Javan!

ShengHong~

Haha potato.

When Mich saw him she was like "OMG THAT'S THE GUY THAT ALWAYS SHAKE HIS LEG DURING EXAM!! SO ANNOYING!"

Lol................!

Casper! My primary school friend.. Hahaha! :)

He : Wa damn you're taller than me.

Hahahaha.

OMGGGGG then after awhile Jia Ming came over with Glen Chua!
I sound like some crazy person but.... Haha!! I really wanted a picture with him 'cus he's like the smartest kid in school!
I mean he scores for exams like what Kindergarten kids do.

I told him "Okay!! Next time when you get famous I'll sell this picture k? Hehehe!"

He gave the very awkward expression and went like "ok...." lolllll.

Omg now I realise I embarrassed myself. AHHHHH.

Mich wanted a picture with him too!

Actually there's something else but I don't think I'm allowed to post it up I think Mich will KILL ME. So far only a few of us know about it.... Lol.

Nicole and Ju.

Nicole's the prom queen!

(Omg thank god TJCians-know-who wasn't the prom queen.)

Class photo :)

... Everyone's smiling except me OMG.

:( Then now Jia Ming is not looking.

After awhile Germ went to change... Lol.... -_- She really hated that dress. But it's so cute!!!

SEE THE HAND. Haha super cute!! Bobbi, Nicks and Mich had to push them together. Lol!!

I told Germ "How come I like stand closer to him than you huh??"

She just -_- me hahaha.

Joelle :)

Her hair has the salon smell lol.

Tze Hern! :)

I told Tze Hern "my classmate would love to take a picture with you!!! But I can't find her..."

I showed Michelle this picture and she was like "OMG WHY! WHY YOU NEVER CALL ME!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" Lol! I really couldn't find her :/

Hai Shan~

Hou Chen! My OG mate~

Does he look like he's from China? I totally didn't know until like this year...

Germ and TA~

I told TA "Did you know Germ said you're the only marry-able one in band?"

TA : O_O?

My OGMS :) They're in SC~ Plus Yun Wei, that makes 3 of them in SC!

My dear OG 6!

Sumathi, Zhi Qi, Yun Xing, Yun Wei, Crystal, Me and Hai Shan :)

I accidentally blurted out "OG.....! OG what arh?"

And everyone was like OMG JOANNA!!!!

:( I was thinking of OG 13... Then I realised it was my OG last year.

I remember liao..! 6!!!

After Prom there was nothing on.. -_- (dk whether my school so boring or what huh)

So my classmates and I decided to head to Avatar next door for a while.

Ah Ber and girlfriend was here too! 'cus she works there and had to attend to something that day.

Aw :)

Hehe my feet was aching.

After that I think they left... I also don't know lol.

Went back in to find my classmates, then I saw Jia Yun!

Hehe :) I think she's super pretty!! ^_^

Okay, headed over to Avatar.

Apparently VJ was having their post-prom there.

WHY THEIR SCHOOL SO COOL ONE? :( My school no post anything one...

Actually I wasn't allowed to get in BUT......

I realised my sm's sister's husband is the bouncer there.

Omgwthepic!!

And I was scratching my head fretting behind some wall grabbing onto one of Germ's friend's IC and tryna memorize everything. -_-

Her friend was really nice! She was like trying to teach me what to do... But I cannot tank sia lol.

Another of her friend told me "You HAVE to try under age clubbing! It's so thrilling!"

Yeah but my heart was popping out!!! ~_~

I'm not meant for this seriously :(

Mich and her primary school friend?

She was SO happy to see him lol! After taking this picture she said "THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE AH!!! *jumps around*"

Yak & Mich hahaha.

Left around 2 plus.. Yak and Mich went back to MBS to Sharmane's room to stay the night before heading home in the morning.

She got the freaking presidential suite!!
The other day I called Michelle to tell her some stuff and she was SCREAMING through the phone about the cool grand piano, the glass "walls", the large KBox room...

And I was like on the other end of the line like "..........................................."

But yea it sounds damn cool lah!

I cabbed home with Germ, Jia Xin, Johnson and Jeremy.

The cabbie was really nice he agreed to pick 5 of us :)

Was planning some other class outings on the cab....

Aiya I think all of our class outings also fail one lor -_-

The next time I'll be seeing my classmates would be during our Christmas party at our civics tutor's house!
Then the next time after that would be next year in the school hall already....

(Yeah my class not bonded one :( It's just in snippets)

Wah thinking about the results just FREAKS ME OUT.

I dreamt I got U for GP.

Nightmare, literally.

2011-12-08T18:23:00.001+08:00

On the way to prom now~ on Germ's Dad's car with Germ, Ju, Jia Xin.

I hope I have fun.....~

2011-12-03T19:59:00.003+08:00

Post A's Day 5.

Today I found out something which I've been dreading for the past 4 months.

I really don't know how to react. The only thing I could do was hide in bed and cry and cry and cry.

But it's like.... I can't do anything about it. So why am I torturing myself like that?

I confided in 6 people about this. Everyone roughly told me the same thing.

I guess I can't cheat myself anymore. I'm not an emotionally strong person. I break easily. Such things can kill me literally. I know it's stupid I know all the things everyone tell me but talk is cheap. I can't promise all you people that know that I can do what I said I would. But I will try. At least start trying my best now.

It sucks to be stubborn because you only give up when the ultimatum happens.

Then again, I guess my wish came true. I always wish that he'd be happy again and I can tell he really is now.

Joanna, it's time to let go.

Like what dramas always say, you don't have to own someone if you love them. As long as they're happy, you should be.

Always thought it was stupid. But today I realise yea maybe it's true.... I'm searching for that little part in me who's willing to do this and hopefully it'll grow in time so I won't have to feel so upset.

I got a feeling a few days (or maybe moments later) i'll start crying thinking how much I miss him.

But what to do? Life is a slut. It fucks with everyone. (I think I heard this from Eleanor's friend, Keith). Hit me with your best shot!!!!! Just fucking get better after all this please.. I'll die of the metal torture if this keeps up forever......

And sometimes losing one means losing all since he was my 100%.

Like what Eleanor told me, it's a lesson learnt.

As long as he's happy lor....

I think all I can do now is try to distract myself from all this shit.

I was telling Eleanor, considering I took a year to get over my dead hamster, I wonder how long this is gonna take.

(Psst Jappie, I still miss Ruru sometimes :()

WHY AM I SO SENTIMENTAL?????

Too much for my own good ugh....

I couldn't coop up in my bed the whole day so I went to find my sister as planned.....

It's been so fucking long since someone hugged me and tell me "it's okay". Is it so difficult to find someone whom I mean a lot to??????? ..........

She just came back from a long trip and she got me a few Miffy stuff...

I love them Jappie, thank you <3 Here's two of them.

2011-12-02T16:55:00.003+08:00

Post-A's Day 4 :)

On the bus home from shopping with Michybombom!

Went to school in the morning to collect our testimonial and some certificate showing our PW and Chinese language results.

Wah!!! Super paiseh!!!! We were supposed to be in half-U but we didn't know. Plus I asked my civics tutor and she said can wear home clothes. Paiseh max lor! Everyone was in half U.

Plus I was in my flatforms! (as what Eleanor's friend, Keith calls it) :(

Quickly grabbed our certs and escaped from school lol x.x

Then headed to Bugis to shop!!

Mich was finding a prom dress. Ended up buying a pink dress. Super sweet hahaha.

THANK GOODNESS she changed her mind about a polka dot dress.

Polka dot and prom.

I still think it's super casual!!!

It was supposed to be an accompany-Michelle kind of trip but I ended up buying 3 dresses myself. Omg :( my money keeps going out but none is coming in.

Michelle's first heels. Lol! The auntie at the shop was complaining how she's so big already yet never wear heels before. It looks so kiddy on her but very cute lah hahaha.

After awhile we got tired :( so nua-ed awhile at some small eatery at level 3 of Bugis street. (omg they expanded! Super huge now!)

The colourful staircases are so cartoonish!!

Showing me her lip gloss.

Hahaha but I can't use lip gloss for nuts I'll just lick them off in awhile :/

Look at our eye bags :( what the shit. Don't know whether it was because we stayed up too late yesterday night or is it the aftermath of A's!!!!!!!!!

Not smiling doesn't work much either lol sad.

Oh!! But I read a magazine at Keith's the other day and it said using chilled tea bags works!

Just squeeze it until dry (after you use it), place it in the fridge for 5 minutes than just place it under your eyes.

Shall try it soon!!!

It reminds me of sims somehow....

Omg I think I'm left with like $60ish till idk when!! I need to start working :(

Going for a walk-in interview with Mkchelle next Friday or Saturday! :)

And I actually applied for internship but no news yet leh....

Should all else fail, back to Beach Cabana :(

#likeabitsian

2011-12-01T20:16:00.005+08:00

Had Haagen Dasz fondue with Eleanor just now at Tampines Mall~

Haven't seen her in a super super super long timeeeee. :)

Well it was kinda awkward initially but after awhile it was okay lah :) started blabbering nonsense with her... (emo-ing awhile hahahah).

Wah shit I HATE my hair!!!! Must eat more seaweed :( :( :(

This was "dinner" lol!!!

After that we started walking around outside the new Nandos and Eleanor saw her secondary school friends who were going Nandos for dinner. So she dragged me along to "make friends" hahaha. Well they're fun. Super funny. And very interesting. (in a sick way) but haha! It's the first time I see someone saying "through the green glass door, do you see boobies or titties?" very loudly. Lol!!!!

And now we're monopoly dealing outside Starbucks.

Well this is kinda fun. :)

2011-11-30T18:45:00.001+08:00

Yay! My cover came in the mail! :)

I had a super hard time fixing it on cus it was harder than I expected and I was really afraid of spoiling my phone -.- then again, will the sides be scratched? Hm...

And the first time I got on, suddenly "no service". Got a shock!!!! Cus my sim card is "fake" (it was cut) and if it dies on me now I can't use my phone for the next 2 days cus my dad and sm are going on cruise (again...)

So I tried to take the cover out and check on my sim card..... But the cover got stuck. OMG. Heart attack.

But the skilful me got it out in the end HAHA. And now it's fine :)
Even my dad thinks it's cute lolololol.

And I just did rebonding!!!
Keith cut bangs for me again.. :(

2011-11-30T09:04:00.004+08:00

Well, so the big A's are over. I spent the first day of post-A's nua-ing at home, wriggling in my bed, emo-ing a little and clearing my notes and books. I really wonder how many trees I've killed... Okay but at least I didn't throw the papers away, recycled them! :)

Wonder what's the rest of my Post-A's gonna be like!!!!!! :/

Okay! So yesterday was Michelle's turn to be on 玩家万岁 (Home Makeover 2!)

Germ actually texted our WHOLE class, our civics tutor, her VJ/TKSS friends and reminded them to watch. HAHA!!!

But I forgot about it so I missed like half of it -_- But it's okay!!! Thank goodness for xinmsn catch up TV!!! Hehehehe.

MICHELLE IS SO CUTE BECAUSE.....

Mark Lee: "这个镜子是你常用的吗?"

Mich: Mm!

"真的吗?"

真的！

"你照镜子，你看到什么?"

看到美女lor!!! :)

Omg!! This girl buay paiseh one lor haha! Even our civics tutor was laughing at her lol!!

Well.. That's Michelle for you!! ♥

Watch the video here!

2011-11-27T18:31:00.001+08:00

Two more days till all this shittybombom is over. Seriously, I'm scared. Scared of everything that will happen. Be it the need to face up to facts of all the shit that has happened, or collecting the piece of paper that would decide my entire life next year in the damn hall.

But really.. Up till this point. All I can do is hope and pray. What else can I do. Yea maybe try to memorise all the weird mcq answers or start going thru the whole stack of papers sitting on my desk. (maybe like out of 40 questions? 2 will be reused? :/)

Oh my gah I'm freaking out. I think the stress bomb just hit me. Thanks you're a bit too late.

2011-11-25T12:23:00.002+08:00

Found this super cute cover online!! GONNA GET IT!!! Teeeheeheeeee!!!

I excitedly told Eleanor about it but turns out..... She's using BB.

Then I think what, half a minute later? I excitedly told her about the online shop and told her to download the app but it's an iPhone app. -_-

#fail

Omg!! :D I'm not a super big fan of stitch like she is but.... IT'S SOO CUTEEE. Too bad I only managed to find two such designs. The other one is Rilakkuma. Michelle would loooooove that!

Whoa.. Imagine if they had a Scrump/Miffy design.... *_*

2011-11-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

I can be tough, I can be strong

But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl that gives a shit

Behind this wall, you just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said

You left them running though my head

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it, just went with it

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

I wish you were here

I love the way you are

It's who I am, don't have to try hard

We always say, say it like it is

And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said

You left them running though my head

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it, just went with it

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know

That I never wanna let go, let go, oh, oh

No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know

That I never wanna let go, let go, let go, let go

Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go

Let go, let go, let go

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

I wish you were here

2011-11-24T19:00:00.004+08:00

Just went to Pizzaria, Mozza for dinner!

Actually the initial plan was to dine at Osteria, Mozza (I think it's close to fine dining?) but the food looked so complicated so we just went next door to the pizza place lol.

Feast your eyes! ^_^

I have no idea what's this hmmm.

But it was really sour.

Now you know :)

Well then maybe I'll have a lot of good luck because my crazy hair always get tangled and I have to resort to pulling the comb like a crazy girl and sometimes it flies :(

Mushroom pizza. Tastes weird. Super salty.

Chicken liver bruschetta. It tasted.. Interesting.

I guess I just don't like the taste of liver :/

And today I finally know bruschetta is pronounced as bru-sketta and not bru-shetta like what the good news cafe auntie always say.... (okay lah then again their bruschetta also fake one)

I have no idea what meat is this too. But it tasted.... Unique as well.

~_~

Hehehe no it doesn't mean "wtf". Why does it even mean "wtf"?

I still remember Eleanor and dahren always joke about it being "Makan"

Potato pizza! Omg I love this!!! The potato was plain... But the rest of it was yumtumtumz!! :)

Some free thingy they gave. Tasted like cheese.

Some salad that is very very bitter! I liked the cheese though hehe.

They placed the utensils in this envelop!

Potato dish with peanuts (?) and mayo!!

Nomzzz for potatoes :)

Cauliflower.

THE WHOLE POTATO PIZZA!!! *slurps*

Overall, the food was just so-so. I guess I just can't appreciate such food. Really, I'd choose pizza hut's cheesy crust any day. Lol! #soverynotatas

2011-11-24T10:51:00.001+08:00

There's this app that allows you to search your friend's location lololol.
It's called "Find My Friends"

Like stalker only!!

I asked Ray to download it so I could test it and tadah!!! Found out he's in school HAHA.

2011-11-24T10:26:00.001+08:00

My Sis is still in Amsterdam and she found out a Miffy store there!

She said she was gonna "raid the store". Okay even though the things are VERYYY cute, it scared me cus when she started buying cute stuff she can never (or rarely) be stopped!!! Maybe until her stack of money disappears mysteriously.....

Hey!!! Maybe that's where I got my fetish for cute stuff from :/
Oh no, suckers for cute stuff are all at a disadvantage :(

THANK YOU JAPPIE! <3

Say Hi to my new mascot from Amsterdam and my sister's kitty mascot!!! :)

(and the whole row of them at the store!! Hahaha. Omg see the brown one. It looks like bread hahahha)

2011-11-23T18:52:00.002+08:00

Yummy Japanese dinner @ Megumi!!! :)

2011-11-23T17:19:00.001+08:00

I got myself a new phone! :) Well.. Technically speaking it doesn't have much difference except for "Siri"...

But since my previous phone was really cock, old, slow, REALLY SLOW........ My consumer surplus is maximised!! (Hahaha lolol no economics already~)

Spent the whole afternoon lazing in bed.. Finding ways to fill up the spaces..... Finding cute wallpapers... Downloading lame movies... Searching for cute covers....

There's actually this Scrump cover that I saw and really like. It's blingy and full of Swarovski crystals! *_*
But the person (with reasonable pricing) doesn't have the Scrump design and the others like qiao zha sia :(

And sadly I can't use the covers I found at home 'cause 4 covers can't fit 4s'. Somehow the mute/un-mute switch at the side of the 4s is slightly lower than that of the 4's :(

Purposely one lor... So they can earn more money from selling accessories is it? :(

And Siri is so lame...... Germ showed me this tumblr with some people's encounters with Siri.
shitthatsirisays.tumblr.com

Okay I'm going out for dinner soon. It has been ages since I went out with reasons not associated with school/studying ._.
#lifeofajcstudent

But whatever. My life starts next Tuesday after 3pm.

Hopefully.

2011-11-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

Sister's 25th Birthday Party

It was held last month at some function room at her colleague's condo. Was really excited 'cus of the balloons and pictures and stickers... And most importantly I got to see my Sis which I don't very often due to unfortunate circumstances ;(

Presents table! And the cutie rabbit balloon :)

Cakes! With the creepy ballerina cake...!

Some game my Sis bought... Hahaha so kiddy but its fun.

You're supposed to use the scoop thingy, pick up the ice-cream and drop it on the cone and see how high it goes!

Yummmmmmy Thai food :) I likey the Tom Yum soup. Slurpsss.

Kitty wink wink ;)

She burst the next day after the party. Epic fail.

My sis claims Chloe (her lil mini maltese) killed it with her death stare.

My fave corner :) The Polaroid counter :)

The guests could take polaroids with my sis and deco and keep it for themselves.

It's full of cute stickers!!! *Squeals* My sister let me keep all the leftover stickers. Now I have a whole new bunch in my file. Heeee.

:) I likey the rabbit sticker!

We took 2 polaroids but I forgot to keep one... :(

So artsy-fartsy. I like ^_^

Rabbitoooo! :)

And a few Polaroids taken then.

Overall I think close to 100 Polaroids were taken!?

Madness..!!!!!!!!!!

Rabbitttttto and the purple elephant :)

Val had the purple elephant for her birthday this year too :)

Heheheeeeeeeeeeeeeee cho kewt!!!! :)
I brought her home after the party! Right now she's deflated and hidden somewhere in my book shelf. My maid nearly threw her away. :( I shall find one day to inflate her again. (When, I don't know haha. She's so cute but it's so AA!!!)

Rilakkuma and Miffy Polaroids! Didn't get to take a Miffy shot though :(

I actually contemplated of getting a Polaroid cam because of the Miffy film design.... Hahaha crazy.

Actually Miffy looks very lame. She's just a fat rabbit with a dress (which looks like a table cloth that was thrown over her) with a crossed mouth. But because she's a rabbit... I don't know she looks cute to me. Hehe.

I had a Miffy doll in the past... It was a free gift from some petrol kiosk (I think) and my Mum gave it to my bro but he shoved it to me lololololol.

But I lost her. :/

Sis and her 25 long candles which could last for.... 10 minutes???

(A lot of pictures to take!)

:) Wink wink.

Presents! :)

I ordered a Kindle sleeve for her online via Etsy 'cus I noticed hers was always bare and naked.

But turns out her friend also bought her a baby pink one so now she has to use both interchangeably :P

Her party was quite a success :)

Apart from those cheapomeapoes who initially didn't want to turn up and only wanted to conditionally (WITH SATAY? Wth). I mean seriously, people invite you to a party you still xian dong xian xi and cook up so many dumb excuses.

What's worst, the same group of people keep harassing my sis recently because of some stuff that happened.... :( Super long story.

But hai, she's in Amsterdam now (previously in Paris) and I hope the trip will make her happier :) Even if it's only temporary... :)

2011-11-21T19:58:00.001+08:00

I want this that those these everything. :(

3 papers left.......
Up till this point I seriously have the "I'm screwed" feeling.

Owell no scholarships I guess... :(

2011-11-21T01:01:00.002+08:00

You don't have to build a rollercoaster, to find your own way to make the best of these days of summer.
You can dance to the beat of a different drummer.
Just grab those opportunities when you see 'em.
'cause everyday's a brand new day, you gotta carpe diem.

-Phineas & Ferb

It's like some kiddy show but it's by far the most educational cartoon I've watched. Well, I think the songs are a source of inspiration and hehe I learnt a few vocabulary words from the show. Lol embarrassing, much!!

Well time for bed. Time to face H2 Economic for the last time tomorrow..

2011-11-18T16:47:00.002+08:00

It feels like my exams are over but no... :/ then why am I acting like it is? I don't know :(

I listed out the things i've been dying to do since this year started and I realized...
Great... 90% of it is related to he-who-shall-not-be-named :(

Things are just... Simply... Amazing.
So tell me, what's there to look forward to after A's?
10% of those things i could do?

Heart wrenching just to think about it. So should i be smiling or crying my heart out on the 29th since I won't have anything else to keep my attention away? :/

I guess it's just what God has to take away from me.

I'd be lying if I say it's okay I'm alright.

But I guess it'd be better for you. You'll have someone prettier, more tolerant, someone who's not childish immature stubborn selfish hotheaded, someone who will listen to you, who's able to read you like a book. Everything I wasn't. Well.. 你开心就好了.

When you watch dramas and you see all those dramatic things people do, you'd prolly be like "what the hell woman are you crazy?"
Its only during times like this when you go through all the shit life gives you, that you'd truly be able to understand those weeping sobbing crying on tellies.

2011-11-17T18:13:00.002+08:00

When you're lost, depressed, hurt, saturated, exhausted and close-to-tears,

what the hell are you supposed to do?

2011-11-14T21:47:00.001+08:00

Feeling lost, dejected and emo all of the sudden.

I mean things would be a little better if my papers were a bit more manageable?

It just sucks having this "I could do those questions why didn't i read the damn question and probe more into it" kinda feeling. Cus then and there you'll know you're gna lose out to all those people out there who secured the few marks you lost.... In every stupid question.

Hate all this shit.

Things get worst when I feel damn sleepy yet I know i cant sleep cus I have to finish this... Do that... Read this... Memorize that...

Seriously!!! What's wrong with my lousy memory? I can't study few days before and expect myself to remember even 1/10 of what i memorized because everything disappears in a few days.

Not that i don't understand the concept... It's just that Cambridge is always asking for this and that and this and that and somehow I got this idea instilled in me that if I don't memorize fully, those crazy muggers are gonna beat me to it.

OKAY even if I do they are still gonna because I have no idea why I can't concentrate at all during all my papers. I will always be subconsciously thinking about some things.
.........and someone.

At times I'll just lose the momentum, sit there for 5 minutes having random thoughts, then finally get back to doing the questions.
Crazy. I. Don't. Know. Why.

What's killing me is that everyone excepts me to do well.

Prob is I feel SO MUCH less confident as compared to prelims. I got 82 for prelims.

What's gonna be my score next year?

I mean yeah it may be too early to say all this now since I still have 2 Econs, 2 Physics, 2 Chemistry papers.

But it's just a gut feeling.

And usually, it's right.

Have never felt so scared so insecure so worried before.

At least I told my dad about the possible failure.... Get him mentally prepared should I fail to meet up to his expectations.

85 points sounds... Easy...
BUT SHIT NO IT IS NOT!!!!
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And to make matters worst.. Having the cycles of dreams of A all over again which is driving me crazy.

'cus I miss him so f much.

2011-11-13T02:53:00.001+08:00

#1/10000000000000000000000000000000000ofthelifeofajcstudent

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

11:11:11 11:11

I want to be truly happy again.
And I hope he is and always will be too.

2011-11-09T16:10:00.001+08:00

3 papers down!!!!

First one was damn demoralizing. Sigh. This is what happens when youre over confident. :/

I'm quite glad for GP though because the topic was relatively relatable :) (not like some kuku politics or freedom question). Really hope I can pass well for the first time ever!!!!

Only day 3 tomorrow and I can't wait for all this to be over!

First thing I'm gonna do: SAVE MY HAIR!!!
It looks like a bush in the autumn season. Dry dying and ugly.

2011-11-04T22:07:00.001+08:00

Davis is mad adorable. I just wasted.. Er okay spent a few hours playing with him before he went home. Lol.

I called Oreo dog dog and he followed me and called him dahdah. Lol!!

Kids are so adorable.
(hm except when they cry...)

I know im supposed to be studying now but I cant. I have no where to! there's mahjong at home.. And my bro's playing games in the room. Sian.....

That's why I HATE it when he comes back from camp. My heart does a little dance whenever my dad tells me he's not booking out. Cus I can use his desk and bed (cus both mine is full of papers and books T.T)

Sometimes I really wish I had a more understanding, caring elder brother instead of someone who always thinks bout himself.. Yea it got better as we get older but it's still a prevalent issue.

"Get your stuff off my table"
'Youre not even using it'
"Yes I will. If you weren't having exams i would have..."
'if I hadn't had exams i wouldn't be having so much stuff around.'

DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss having someone to stand up for me and be there for me when i falter. Maybe, just maybe, one day I'll get used to being independent.... And alone.

Davis screaming smile when I told him to smile for the cam :)
(I look so bloody cui omg, i'm seriously considering getting red hair but my Sis thinks it's crazy......)

2011-10-31T22:44:00.002+08:00

It's 7 days to the A Levels.

Well sometimes I feel like I can do this yet sometimes I feel like I can't.

My emotions are crazily out of control and at times I just find myself unknowingly thinking about A all the damn time and all I'd do is stare at my practice papers, not knowing what else to do.

It's not like I have a choice or something...

Well... I told myself I wouldn't want myself to regret doing/not doing something anymore.

So... I guess I just gotta buck up for this final lap.

Funny how I still can't fall asleep without hugging A's jacket :/ It's like a need to me I guess..

God please let everything go well.

They say when you reach the bottom, what's next will always be up... Right?

2011-10-21T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Jappie!

I love ya! :)

2011-08-30T23:15:00.001+08:00

What if one day you realize the one you loved, cared, trusted the most has always been lying to you about everything?

Will you be as stupid as me to come up with reasons to protect him, or will you just move on?

Life ain't no bed of roses anymore.

2011-08-21T19:46:00.001+08:00

Life has been a complete bitch so far.

Lost in hope. In almost everything I guess.

I really hope everything can go back to how it was. I'd give anything to make that happen again.
For now. A'levels should just fricking come and go.

2011-07-23T22:29:00.003+08:00

Hello people!! I'm on hiatus till after my A Levels because I simply have no time to get on to blog :( Well maybe I do but I can't do it without feeling guilty of not studying :(

MY PAINFUL LIFE IN JC IS ENDING SOON!!!

2011-06-27T01:03:00.003+08:00

:( my blog is so dead.

Guess what I've been up to? NOTHING BUT STUDIES! (with 1% of play? Hehe)

Have been so busy recently with school and all! I think my laptop has a mind of it's own. Previously I tried to download games to play and somehow the games all couldn't work. Shortly after there's no Internet connection at all. :( the wifi at home is working fine it's just my lappy :( gosh what a way to stop me from using and surfing the net :( hm yea I could still use my phone to browse the net (and do some online shopping HEEE!!!!) but DAMN ITS SLOW LIKE A SNAIL :@

Have a physics paper to take in 7hours time guess it's time for me to sleep! Ciaosz!

2011-06-08T12:44:00.000+08:00

Reviewing Gas Law e-learning now and saw this.. HAHAHA.

2011-06-01T23:44:00.007+08:00

Band Dinner '11 @ Scoop Of Art (Marine Parade Library)

Just came back from the annual Band Dinner of my secondary school!

This is the... 4th band dinner I've attended and hehehe I love this year's one the most because.......

It's at Scoop Of Art which has Gelato!!!

Actually I can't really differentiate between Gelato, Yogurt, Ice-cream or whatsoever... Only know the texture is different but hehehehe whatever, they're all yummy! :D :D

Their cutie card!

Mamoo!!!!

I look tired and my hair is horrible :( Gosh I need to do something about it.

It's colouring time! Yes they provide paper and crayons for colouring and their template pictures are soooo cute!!!

HEHEHE omg my colouring phail also.

LOOKEY!!!!!!! THE MANGO (the yellow yellow one) LOOKS SO GOOD RIGHT?

Gosh it looks like REAL mangoes! It's awesome. So mangoeishy hehehehe.

Shouldn't have ate so much. Should have saved tummy for Gelatos NOM-NOM.

Green-tea! It's nice in the beginning but subsequently I got kinda sick of it :/

Mamoo's Apple Cinammon.

Jerald's Oreo

Hehehe.

I think someone drew this on the cupboards!

Me too!! 'cause there's P.E :(

HEHEHE there's a cute rabbit!

:) My perkies!

Look alike meh.

Alumni :)

FEEL LIKE EATING MORE GELATO AHHHH.

Nom-nom-nom.

2011-05-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

I took 3 hours to complete the Korea blog post. Oh my goodness -_-

I SHALL EMBARK ON MY STUDY PLAN STARTING TOMORROW.

Hope I can follow at least 1/2 of it T.T

JIAYOU JIAYOU!